First off, have to say sorry for not posting so much.. not much goes on to post about...
This post will cover two things...
First. Death. A friend of mine, whom i have not spoken much to because of some differences in the past, But nonetheless, she is still my friend and "Mamma Bird" as i have called her. She has lost her husband due to cancer. Jack was a very sweet man. He cared about everyone he met. He was a Father and a great Husband. He will be missed by everyone.
Secondly, It is Summer Solstice. The time when the sun is at its highest. the day is longer. Also When the Goddess is in her Pregnant Form. Turning from Maiden to Mother. The Horned God is in his Prime. and there could have been no greater time to meet new friends. I was invited to be in participation in their circle. It was so... i dont know how to say it. It was powerful! You should have been there to just feel the energy that was raised. I have been home for a while now and i am STILL feeling the energy. I have made the decision to go through and join their coven. i felt so welcome there. It will be different for me since i have never been in a coven, but i feel that it is time that i expand my horizons.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Another Year gone..
So, i made it to 24.. there was a lot of ups and a lot more downs this year. But i have learned from all my mistakes and so forth. I will be anxiously awaiting for the many teachable things i will learn in the next year to come.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Back To School?
OK, so I JUST got off the phone with this wonderful woman, who told me about this wonderful School, that lies 15 min away from Cincinnati .. The Art Institute on Cincinnati. (didnt even know there was an AI school in Ohio) She and I talked alot, i told her about my many failure attempts of college. and how i may even be in default. How im at my mother's mercy with transportation and lack of money to move to a different city.
So the Baking & Pastry will take me a year to complete. unless i want to take other classes on top of that, which i will. She told me that there is housing that could go on with my tuition, and if i am in deferment, they can help get me out of it. she even told me that Me being ADD which i told her about, she had told me that their program is so hands on and a creative outlook for people like me. they work one on one with people who need it.
i REALLY want to do this. So now all i have to do is convince my mother.. because i know what she would say.. She would tell me that ive already done it so many times.. i wont finish.. blah blah blah..
Could you just imagine? me Finally finishing and doing something i love?
Oh AND the Culinary program is in ties with Food Network! she told me that someone is an iron chef and another person is on Cupcake Boss! How awesome is that!?
So the Baking & Pastry will take me a year to complete. unless i want to take other classes on top of that, which i will. She told me that there is housing that could go on with my tuition, and if i am in deferment, they can help get me out of it. she even told me that Me being ADD which i told her about, she had told me that their program is so hands on and a creative outlook for people like me. they work one on one with people who need it.
i REALLY want to do this. So now all i have to do is convince my mother.. because i know what she would say.. She would tell me that ive already done it so many times.. i wont finish.. blah blah blah..
Could you just imagine? me Finally finishing and doing something i love?
Oh AND the Culinary program is in ties with Food Network! she told me that someone is an iron chef and another person is on Cupcake Boss! How awesome is that!?
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
The Angel Is Depressed.
What can I do? I cant drop everything in my life and go running to save him. Nor do I even have the money to be able to go back home. I miss my home. I miss Omaha. I miss My daughter. I miss Him.
And now he is in trouble for something that he did not do. and I am here. not able to help in any way. and it hurts. it hurts to know that his life is screwed up, and i cannot be there for him, to lift him up, just a bit. like he has done for me so many times. I cannot count how many times he has actually saved me. Too many times to count. and i feel that i should do something but alas, i cannot do anything, but be there for him if he wishes to talk to me about his problems.
He is my best friend, and he still has a huge part of my heart. and im not sure if he is aware of this. which i am fine with that, i just wish he actually knew how much i care. because i honestly dont think he see's.
I Just pray to Morrighan, the Dark Goddess we both cherish, that she keep a watchful eye over him. Keep him safe. Keep him calm. Keep him at peace. Help him get his child back into his arms. Help him to see that there is love. That there is people out there who actually care and love him. Help him to see that he does indeed have friends who would never stab him in the back.
This Dark Angel is depressed. Only because she does care, and she does worry for her precious friend. This Dark Angel will continue to pray very hard for him.
And now he is in trouble for something that he did not do. and I am here. not able to help in any way. and it hurts. it hurts to know that his life is screwed up, and i cannot be there for him, to lift him up, just a bit. like he has done for me so many times. I cannot count how many times he has actually saved me. Too many times to count. and i feel that i should do something but alas, i cannot do anything, but be there for him if he wishes to talk to me about his problems.
He is my best friend, and he still has a huge part of my heart. and im not sure if he is aware of this. which i am fine with that, i just wish he actually knew how much i care. because i honestly dont think he see's.
I Just pray to Morrighan, the Dark Goddess we both cherish, that she keep a watchful eye over him. Keep him safe. Keep him calm. Keep him at peace. Help him get his child back into his arms. Help him to see that there is love. That there is people out there who actually care and love him. Help him to see that he does indeed have friends who would never stab him in the back.
This Dark Angel is depressed. Only because she does care, and she does worry for her precious friend. This Dark Angel will continue to pray very hard for him.
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