First Blog Ever In My Life

An Introduction to Me 


My Name Is Jade, I am 23 years old. I am Bi-polar and ADD. (Ohh.. A Shiny!)
With my bi-polar, even if that's what i really have, i do admit i don't have many mood swings but they do happen, and when they happen THEY happen..
But for some reason i disagree with the doctors on this part. call me crazy but i really do feel as if there is someone else and not me. I'm not saying Split personality or Multiple Personality Disorder. She feels like she is bound to me.  She talks to me, we argue. She looks different than I. She says her name is Seraphina. She is tall, very pale skin, long straight black hair,deep emerald green eyes, black angel wings on her back, horns of a goat on her head. but she is not scary at all. if fact, i find her amazingly beautiful such as she. She also tells me that she has Fae blood running through her veins, so maybe its all a glamour to me? I don't question it anymore. I have accepted her into me. But she does have a temper.. so i think when i have rage or extreme anger, its actually me acting in her behalf, since she cant herself..  I am very great-full for her because i found her at a time when i felt I had nobody. (She is also the inspiration behind the title 'Inside the Mind of a Dark Angel')

Besides that craziness, more about me; i am bisexual. i am a democrat. my sign is Gemini. I am a mother of the most beautiful little girl in the world, and i am extremely great-full for the family that is now taking care of her. I am an Eclectic Solitaire Pagan, and very proud of it. i am extremely sensitive towards other people, and i am an empath(more below). i aspire to be an owner of a bakery/candy shop someday. other than that i don't know what more to say about myself except, you will see who i am, and whats inside my head in future postings.

 I have been contemplating on starting a blog, not only to help ease my mind, but i also believe it will allow me to even learn to write better. My Soul Sister is my inspiration to wanting to give it a try. My goal is to write about at least SOMETHING everyday.

So for my first Blog,


An Empath is a person who can psychically tune in to the emotional experience of a person, place or animal.

Me Being an Empath..
I hate it because it makes me worry about people that I cant help. I wish there was some kind of 'switch' that i can push to turn it off. I also feel the weight of everyone and my own problems on my back and at times i wonder if i can even go on much further? Then i find a way to get rid of a little bit, just for more to pile up on me.  Along with being an empath, i also have the gift of sympathy. I know so many other empaths who could give a rats ass what the other people around them. Me? Nope. I will go out of my way to solve every problem I can before trying to solve even my own problems, and a lot of times, it goes unnoticed. Many times i have done something without being thanked.
Then the Seraphina... 'Why even bother anymore? Why do we have to care so much? Why do you burden yourself with so much that you obviously cannot handle?'

But then i close that Iron cage (she cant touch Iron) that i had built in my mind to shut her up.

I'll tell you why I do it, It is because I feel that it is my job. Something that I must do. Eventually someone will see my good deeds. And maybe someone will someday wish to follow me in those ways. So I keep doing what I do, because I know what it is like to not have anyone to talk to. Because I wish that I had someone I could cry to.  Its not about the acknowledgement, its about making the people around me feel better. I see things in them that they themselves don't see. My ex, Raven, (Lilith's father) still asks me to this day what 'spark of light' did i see in his eyes when i first met him. For he was so consumed at the time with all the negative things people said about and to him that he could not see the goodness that he possesses. And i will continue to do the same thing to everyone i meet. So i say, Goddess.. BRING IT ON! Because I AM strong enough to hold onto everything and anything you throw my way. This is not really a burden. it hurts like hell, and drives me insane at times, but this is my gift. and i shall bear it with a smile, even though i wish to cry sometimes.

And I will end this Blog tonight with a farewell and i hope at least someone will read this and upcoming ones and i hope that maybe.. just maybe i can change someones life around.


<3 Jade